I can't sleep and my mind is racing. Not sure why.
Here is what I am thinking about....
My kids start school in a week. ALL of them. After much deliberation, we have decided to put Caleb in half day kindergarten. Here is why...
1. I don't want to pay for pre-school.
2. I don't want to pay for pre-school
3. He is 5. (this is Alan's reason, not mine)
So here are the reasons why I wanted to hold him back another year...
1. He just turned 5 in July.
2. He has had no school at all.
So I am feeling sad about having my baby go to school. True it is only half day, but he has been my sidekick for the last 5 years. Actually, he has been the only child of mine that I have stayed home with. I missed everything with my other kids, so letting go of him is extra hard. Don't get me wrong I cried like a baby when my other 2 started school, but they were used to me being gone at work and even though I still have guilt for all the things I missed, I also had to provide for them. I don't know, I am sure I will get over it but right now, I am sad.
I am sad for all the things that I should have done for him. I feel like I am sending him off unprepared. He knows some of his letters (thanks to Samantha), he can count to 5 teen, he know his shapes and colors. I know he will be ok, but he is my baby.
Maybe I can sleep now that I have gotten at least some things off my mind.
4 comments:
lindz! ohhh.. it's crazy how they just keep growing. i hope he likes going to school! what are you going to do with some free time???
j
he'll do great. and you'll like him even more with a little time apart. hope had the same deal going last year and she did great. and it was all day. just think...kid free lunches. i'm way jealous that isn't happening for me for another 5 years. sigh.
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I enjoy reading your rambling;) much of it I relate to. On this particular post I would like to give you a suggestion. My daughter was a very young 5 she did 1 year of preschool and her teacher suggested she do 1/2 day kinder because her attention was not good for all day. I already had her registered for all day but my gut kept telling me to change my mind so that summer I called and changed her to 1/2 day and I felt relieved so I knew I had made the right choice. So here is the suggestion part...repeat him in kinder and go all day. My daughter is in all day kinder this year and she is doing wonderfully. Even though she was on grade level last year she was on the lower end. The teacher said she could move on but supported me in my decision to repeat I will NEVER regret it. Good Luck!!!!
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